She’s trying to program my dad’s email onto his phone, and she can’t figure it out. So she stomps into the computer room and demands that I go to our email on the computer and click on all the things she tells me to. Guess what? That didn’t work. What does she do? She gets irritated with me because it’s not working. So she stomps back in to family room and continues to try and figure it out.
I’ve spent the last couple hours thinking about a lot of things; about friendships, about relationships, about my life. But most of all, I’ve been thinking about me, as a person. I’m not perfect, I make mistakes, and I make dumb choices. But who doesn’t? There is not one person I know that hasn’t done something they regret. You can say “I live life with no regrets” all you want, but I’m sure there is at least one thing, that you wish did not happen. There are a few things I regret in life. However, I’ve grown to accept the fact that they did actually happen. I may not like it, but I’ve accepted it. I may do and say stupid things, but that makes me who I am today. It makes me, well, me. I used to live my life the way others wanted me to, and I did things because I wanted to “fit in”. Now, I could care less if I fit in or not. I’m not in high school anymore, cliques don’t exist. I don’t need to constantly talk about other people to make me feel good about myself. I don’t need to worry about what other people think of me. I need to worry about what I think of myself. I need to put myself first, and I need to stop letting people walk all over me. Letting others influence my opinion isn’t going to get me anywhere in life. I don’t feel the need to start drama, or worry about who’s dating who. I did in high school, but I don’t anymore. I now understand what people meant when they told me I would change after I graduated. I know for a fact that I have changed, but I believe it’s for the better. I’ve grown up, and I’ve taken responsibility for my actions. And changing is something I most certainly do not regret.
“The world doesn’t need any more hot chicks, or tough guys, or smooth-talkers. The world needs more you, and don’t let anyone tell you otherwise.”—Bo Burnham (to someone who’s being bullied for being different)
“Yes, I was infatuated with you: I am still. No one has ever heightened such a keen capacity of physical sensation in me. I cut you out because I couldn’t stand being a passing fancy. Before I give my body, I must give my thoughts, my mind, my dreams. And you weren’t having any of those.”—Sylvia Plath (via comfortablediscontent)
“I am lonely, yet not everybody will do. I don’t know why, some people fill the gaps and others emphasize my loneliness. In reality those who satisfy me are those who simply allow me to live with my ”idea of them.”—Anaïs Nin (via dysmainai)