You wanna know why girls don't wanna start a conversation first either by calling, texting or IM-ing with the guy that she likes? It's because she doesn't wanna seem too desperate. She's afraid that if she starts the conversation first every single time, she might lose what she had or almost had with that guy.. so that's why she always just wait 'til the guy talks to her first.. It's safer that way.
I suffer in silence. I don't cry in front of people. I can smile despite how shitty things are. I will always put you before me. I leave my phone on at night just in case someone needs me. It's because I love everyone else more than I could ever love myself. What can I say, I'm just a fuck up with a good heart.