You told me that you were scared so I tried to move on. You find out and suddenly you’re interested again? I’m sorry, I’m not looking to get my hopes up then get shut down again. I’m tired of being hurt. Somehow, I need to move on and try to get you out of my head, for good this time.
“Maybe I know, somewhere deep in my soul that love never lasts. And we’ve got to find other ways to make it alone or keep a straight face. And I’ve always lived like this; keeping a comfortable, distance. And up until now I had sworn to myself that I’m content with loneliness because none of it was ever worth the risk. You are the only exception.”
I haven’t been on tumblr in a long time. I’ve been so occupied, not physically but mentally. I’ve been thinking a lot lately. And I think it’s time I just went out on a limb. Stopped being so afraid of what other people might think of me. Stopped wondering, “What if?” So, Step 1, tell him that I’m interested. And if he isn’t, oh well. Life will go on. And it’s not like I see him everyday. The problem is though, I need to build up the confidence to actually tell him. Will I actually tell him? Who knows. Do I want to tell him? Hell yes.